Don’t you ever find yourself questioning the motives of people around you including the ones whom you thought you could trust? I’m sure you have. We all have. I’ve been pondering about this a lot more lately especially within the past year. It’s really true that when you are going through some really tough times in your life you’ll see the true colors of those in your inner circle. You begin to understand even more the true meaning of family and friendship. What I’ve learned in my personal experience is that not everyone you call family (blood related) acts like a family. I’ve learned the hard way that those I consider family doesn’t really support me wholeheartedly in my endeavors to pursue my passions in life. I’ve been observing this for quite some time now and in the beginning when I realized it, it really broke my heart. There were many nights where I cried myself to sleep wondering why. The same goes with those who I thought were my truest friends. I never really felt that 100% support from some of them. I find myself asking why they can’t give me the same amount of support I’ve been giving them. I honestly felt let down by many people in the past year. Nobody even really showed their support to me when it comes to one of the things that really matters to me right now which is my fight to help end the stigma against OCD. I know I don’t always talk about this in my blog because I created this blog as a source of inspiration no matter how small that could be. I don’t want people to stumble in my blog and end up feeling depressed afterwards. I want to inspire people in any way that I can be it big or small. I mention about my OCD every now and then because I want people to know that people with OCD are just like everyone else. OCD does not define who we are. It is an illness but it is not our entire being. Yes, we have struggles but we are PERFECTLY NORMAL. Who doesn’t have any struggles in the first place! We all do! Just in different ways. But what we need is support and understanding most especially from our closest family and friends. That’s something I’ve been hoping to achieve since I opened up about my OCD to those I trusted the most. I am honestly disappointed at most of them because of the lack of support. It’s not that I am asking them for money or any material stuff. All I was asking was for them to help spread the word. I really don’t think I even need to spell it out to them because I wrote about it, shared it on Facebook (where all my family and friends are) and asked them to please spread the word to help raise awareness about OCD and to help end the stigma. I was totally bummed out with the results of that as I only got not even five people to respond and two shared it. One of those two is my better half. How sad is that! LOL! Anyway, I was upset about that as you can tell. I’m still a little bitter about it because it amazes me that some people are so quick to share things that doesn’t really matter in Facebook or Twitter but for something that is as important as OCD, nobody seems to give a flying crap about it! I’m sorry about that type of language and tone. It’s just that I’ve been keeping this to myself for quite some time now and I really need to let it out. I’m sure you all have been in a situation similar to mine at some point and can totally understand what I feel. I’m talking about it so I can let it go and move on. I don’t like resenting people. I don’t like bad vibes so I’m choosing to let it all go. One thing I learned though is that you can’t expect people to always care or support you and sad to say that this happens even with those who are closest to you. That’s the reality of life! But despite the disappointments, I am still grateful that circumstances in our lives shows us who we can really count on to versus the ones who are just there for the good times (or if it’s in their favor). It’s an important lesson that we all continue to learn as we go through life. It happens to all of us at different points in our lives. The best thing that we can do is to always be optimistic about everything in life. We must always have faith in ourselves and others because in the end, things always workout for the best. 🙂